2 Weeks & 6 Days!!!

Holly COW. I can't believe in just over two weeks I'm going to be married. Well i personally wasn't nervous until I hit the 3 week mark. But I am excited and can't wait.

I know the next 2 weeks are going to be very, very hectic but i will manage. Now that I'm am fully recovered and back to my old self again I can do almost anything... life is wonderful!!

Finally Back To Work

My first day back at work was Saturday and I was so excited to be active again and feel productive. Although work was slow it was nice to be out and doing something. It was kind of weird going around the hospital to patient’s rooms and thinking I NEVER want to be a patient again, and I never want to get sick again. Hospitals are great places for the sick but they really make you go crazy and it’s just pretty miserable. It’s so horrible being sick and I didn’t realize how much I take my health for granted. My goal is to stay healthy, and not get sick for an entire month. I figure I will keep my goal low for the sake of my luck!! But I would love to be sick free for an entire year. We’ll see if I can, I’m keeping my fingers crossed.
So only 3 more weeks and I will finally be married. That means no more planning, no more stressing about this and that and colors and pictures and cakes and ohh you name it. It really hasn’t been horrible trying to plan this wedding b/c honestly getting sick kind of put things on hold for a while and I didn’t have much to do or worry about. So it was nice for that time. But now that it’s getting closer things are starting to pick up again. But we are so close.
Clinton got a new job and sadly this job he travels a lot. I didn’t think I would mind it when we talked about it but today I have really missed him. He works for his cousin who lives in Show Low, AZ about 3 hours from the valley. So most parts of the week he has to travel up there for business but he does get to stay in the valley as well. He left yesterday morning and won’t be back until tomorrow night and then he will leave again on Friday. Kind of stinks L
Today has been a kind of boring day. I got up around 7:30 this morning and got a few things done before I left for town to run some errands. I had to be back around noon to meet this guy who still HAS NOT shown up yet. This is great… on Thursday night my car was broken into. YEAH I love this… I guess they thought my car was something special. So what happened was they first tried to break through the key holes on all doors and that didn’t work so then they attempted to pick the look through the window and then finally went to plan C and broke the window. Not very smart thieves’ b/c they were unsuccessful at ripping off my stereo and whatever else they wanted. Sadly my I-pod was in my car and they found it and took that. It was an old one but I had a lot of songs on it and I’m sad b/c I don’t have music to listen to when I run. Stinky thieves, I really don’t like people who steal. So back to why I’m waiting… this guy is suppose to meet me to fix my door locks but hasn’t shown up yet and it’s almost 3:30 and I’m not going to wait all day for him.

2 Weeks & A Burger!!

Well today was my two week mark for post surgery and I have to say that I didn't think I would be feeling this good. (Knock on wood). I have to say that this tonsil surgery was actually a piece of cake compared to being sick for three weeks and being in the hospital for 5 days and feeling like I wanted to die. My recovery has gone very well considering what I was told and how difficult this is for adults. I was told so many horror stories I thought for sure I was going to experience a few but NOPE. I think I had a total of 3 days that I felt horrible… ….and those days were days that the pain was too much to bare. The first week after surgery I did a LOT of sleeping. All the medicine I was taking made me so tired and so groggy I couldn’t do much so sleeping was great! I was in pain almost all day every day but it was manageable and most of the time the pain came from eating. So eating popsicles was easy and always good. I managed to eat two boxes of popsicles in the first week. I ate lots of soups, and Malt-o-meal has become a favorite breakfast of mine. Mashed potatoes, mac&cheese, top-roman, I don’t think I will ever eat these foods again or for a while at least.
Because the back of my throat looked like raw meat it was very difficult to eat almost anything, even eating oatmeal and soups was difficult. Swallowing was hard b/c the muscles and tissue were so sore and tender it’s hard to push stuff down the back of my throat when its covered in scabs.... yes that sounds really gross but try having to deal with that for two weeks. I did!! Not to mention when the scabs fall off well you can use your imagination on where they go... Yup right down the throat with whatever I ate or drank. Sounds disgusting… But most of the time I didn’t even notice they were falling off. So as gross as it may be I ate all my throat scabs. I still have a few that haven’t fallen off yet but the Dr. said that it will be soon. I went to see the Dr. Yesterday and he said things look really good and that I am his first patient that he has seen with a “Canyon” in their throat. He also told me that my throat was a 10 on the ugly scale,and in the many many years he has been in practice he has never seen something so horrible. So I guess I should feel pretty special....
Today I was CRAVING a BURGER.... actually ever since I had surgery I have wanted to eat a hamburger…. And well that wasn’t going to happen but today I wanted to try. Clinton stopped by during lunch to visit me and he really wanted to go to In & Out Burger and I said OKAY let’s go!! I was determined to eat it and enjoy it no matter what. I wanted to eat something that wasn’t soup, mashed potatoes, roman, or mush; I wanted "normal" food I wanted something good..... I felt like I was in heaven or pretty darn close. The first bite was questionable but I told myself I had to bear through the pain no matter what, and surprisingly it wasn’t bad. The burger never tasted so good... I was so happy to get every last bite down without any problems.
My mom came to stay with me while I was recovering and that was wonderful for me at least. I felt bad b/c I don't have TV or anything and I wasn't much entertainment. I felt bad b/c we would sit around all day with nothing to do, but mom is great she is so easy to please. I think she read about 15 books while she was here. We did get out and run errands and get stuff for the wedding done so there were some days we were productive. It was great just having my mom here with me she kept me company; she helped me clean and cooked me soups and malt-o'meal and stocked my fridge and cupboards that was awesome. MOMS are GREAT!!! Don't take them for granted.
Between my hospitals stays ER visits and Surgery I have so far reached a grand total of $16,000 in a matter of 3 weeks. Thank goodness for Insurance!! Not to mention I’m still waiting on a bill from another hospital that I stayed at which I'm guessing will be around $4,000. So that would bring my grand total up to around $20,000 in the past 3 weeks. I did pretty well if you ask me. :)

Sleep Deprivation....

So its about 10:30 p.m. and I'm trying to sleep but w/ all this crazy medicine I'm taking its making is very difficult. I'm taking a steroid to help with the swelling which can make you WIRED... a pain med that makes you sleepy so they counter-act each other its very annoying.... I've had many sleepless nights. During the day I feel like a zombie and cant seem to keep my eyes open but the moment the sun goes down and I'm exhausted from a HARD days work (or maybe not!!) I get into bed to only toss and turn all night long and its driving me CRAZZZZIEEEE. So i have decided to stop fighting the pillow and just get out of bed. So far my recovery is going well. Every day seems to get better and worse. Its weird b/c when I wake up in the mornings I'm in a lot of pain and i think its b/c my mouth has been none working all night and once I'm up i start stretching all the tissue and muscle in my mouth and that causes more pain. Eating is actually very uncomfortable but i seem to not stop! But mid-morning and afternoon I'm doing a little better. So far i have done extremely well considering all the horror stories i was told about post surgery. I haven't hit them just yet... yikes!!! Most of my days consist of eating and watching moves....my meals consist of..... OH take a guess??? soup!!!....Roman-noodles, tomato, cream-of-broccoli (wont try that one again), and tonight i ate yes sad to say.... mac-& cheese.. but it was actually wonderful. I could believe how fast i shoveled that stuff down i was like a vacuum cleaner. I think i enjoyed it b/c it wasn't soup.

I'm starting to get really tired of watching movies all day so I'm ready for something new. I have a couple books to read but every time i pick one up and start reading i get loopy and fall asleep so I'm at a loss. Its interesting after surgery they tell you to relax and take it easy but I'm having a really hard time b/c i feel i have been doing NOTHING for so long. After being in the hospital for 5 days and then coming home to only recover a week to get right back into another recovery state its making me crazy. I feel like I'm trapped in my own little world. But luckily I have Clinton here with me to spend most of my boredom with. I feel so bad for him, he is so wonderful he never gets bored b/c he says being bored is a lack of creativity... well then I'm very NOT creative!!!
My mammy comes tomorrow. Which will be nice, I'm excited to have mom around. There is nothing better than having your mom around when you are sick. No matter how old you get mom always knows the keys to making things all better. I figure I'm not married just yet so its okay! It will be very nice to have here around b/c i just moved into our apt and have a few more things to get organized so I'm looking forward to her help. Well I hope staring at this computer screen has helped me to feel tired so I'll give it another try. Until next time.