Monday, January 26, 2009

In The Blink Of An EYE

I remember the day so vividly when I heard the one word I had been longing to hear for so long……“POSITIVE”. I was ecstatic; excitement ran through me like lightening. I couldn’t wait to go home and tell my husband the news; we were going to have a baby! I remember getting home and being so excited to tell him, i could hardly stand it. The look on his face was priceless when I told him..... A moment I will never forget.

Then what seemed like the blink of an eye all that excitement was taken away from us by the one word no one EVER wants to hear … “UNFORTUNATELY”.

The Lord has a plan and a purpose for all his children; sometimes it involves heartache, pain and sorrow. Clinton and I experienced one of those plans the Lord had for our family that brought much heartache, pain and sorrow. Just when things were going wonderfully and we couldn’t be happier about having one of Gods Choice Children join our family…. Things changed in a blink of an eye. As we sat in the Emergency room with anxiety, fear and hope racing through us, we waited and waited…. The moment the Dr. walked into the room my hope faded as he said that one word that we didn’t want to hear….. “UNFORTUNATELY”. My heart sank, I started to cry and felt like the world had ended. I didn’t know what to say, I didn’t know what to do; I wanted this to all be a horrible dream but I knew it wasn’t. I looked over at my husband and saw pain rip through him. I wondered why? Why us? Why now? Why did this happen? We may not know the answer now and we may never know why. But we do know that everything happens for a reason. The Lord knows us and has a plan for us and sometimes that plan involves times of heartache, pain and sorrow. But he also won’t give us anything we can’t work through. As hard as it has been for Clinton and me, we are doing well. We want to say thank you to all those who sent their love and concern and the many prayers we felt as we went through this difficult time. We know the Lord loves us and experienced all that pain and sorrow we had to go through, we are never alone.


Jeremy & Ashley said...

My heart sank as I was reading your words, you guys will be in our prayers.

I have always admired your attitude towards life, and you are right. I have three little scars that were a constant reminder to me, and it broke my heart everytime I saw them. But Time heals and when your little bundle of joy does come, it will all make sense.

Love you guys and take care,

A Plane Family Story said...

I'm so sorry my dear. Your attitude is so amazing and I admire you for all your courage. Let me tell you from experience that after the pain will follow so much joy!
Love Ya,

Basarabas said...

I am truly sorry. I can't imagine what you're going through. You'll be in our prayers.

Scott & Tami said...

You are in our prayers. You are amazing and your strength and example has strengthened me and my testimony...thank you for are truly amazing. Love you!!!

Kelsey Danielle said...

Words can't describe how sad I am to hear your news. I wish you all the love and happiness you deserve! Please know that I am praying for you and your husband. Take care

Lisa said...

I love you Erin!! you and clinton are in my thoughts and prayers.

Michelle said...

I want you to know that I am thinking of you and praying for you and your hubby everyday! God bless you both.

jayne said...

Same thing happened to me before my first baby--and then again after my 2nd. It's a hard thing to go through. You seem to be handling it better than I did. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Jasmine and Shawn Turner & Family said...

We have been praying for you every day--the kids are always saying "Bless Aunt Erin and Uncle Gus". We love you tons. I asked Payton today if he remembered when he went to AZ and saw Aunt Erin, Uncle Gus and Riley. He thought for a second when I said Riley, the doggy and then he said, "Uncle Gus! Uncle Gus!" Wish we could be there...Love, Jas., Shawn and the kids

Sarah and Robbie said...

You are in our prayers. We love you. You are really a wonderful example of faith in Heavenly Father's plan. Love you, girl.